(Read online)Death Is The Only Ending For The Villain - chapter-186
I fell down after a short scream at the sudden appearance of Renald. He
frowned and covered his ears. “Hey! Why are you yelling all of a sudden!”
“Oh, why are you walking around so dark at dawn?”
“Hmm? Huh! You’re so elegant looking for a dog hole at dawn?” “…”
My mouth was shut at his rebuttal for the first time in a long time.
‘…God, damn it.’
I never expected Renald to wake up while even trained knights was still
asleep at dawn.
The fact that I considered him as the one of the character who might have
been brainwashed by the heroine made me nervous. I was pouting my lips
and thinking about what excuse to make.
“Aren’t you going to stand up sooner? Your clothes are dirty.”
Renald gave me his hand with a pout. I looked at him with astonished eyes
for a moment, and soon ignored it and jumped out of my seat. He asked, as
I was brushing off my dirty clothes.
“…Geez, are you going to leave home?” “Hey, you?”
“You’re going to tell father?”
When I asked back instead of an answer, the blue eyes shook for a moment.
He stared at me for a moment and opened his mouth.
“If I tell father… So you’re not going out?”
His question was a bit strange. If he tell the Duke that I secretly
looked for a dog hole, he would surely try to lock me up, but then what
was the point of my recovery?
I imaged the worst. The escape was blocked and the piece could be taken
away by a scary heroine. And the idea of a brainwashed person being
driven to death as a vicious villainess who torments the hostess…
I wanted to try to die again, I didn’t want to die like that in a fucking
‘…Come to think of it, I failed this time because of crazy automatic
payment, but if I try again, I might escape.’
Suddenly this thought went that far further. I muttered to myself like I
was talking to myself. “…Let’s just die again.”
Then, Renald shouted.
“There’s nothing you can’t say in front of your brother! Are you crazy?
You barely survived, and…!” “Then don’t tell father.”
I cut off his words in the middle and gave him a cold grunt. “If you
don’t want to see me die again.”
He frowned and swept his hair up roughly. He was staring at me with a
pouted look on his face, and soon reached out and grabbed my arm.
And turning to him, I stumbled, and in a daze I had no choice but to
follow him. “Where are you going?”
“Renald, where are we going?”
“Ah! If you keep on hitting me, I will run to our father and tell him
It was not a strong force, so I could quickly stop walking, but it was
not the way back to the mansion. He didn’t seem to be trying to extradite
me yo the duke immediately. So I obeyed him in silence.
After a long walk on the opposite side of the original path, Renald
stopped near a unfamiliar wall. Under this wall, piles of straw were
piled up. It was a place where knights collected the remains of
scarecrows used for training.
For a moment, I took a look at Renald and soon he put my wrist down and
walked towards him. Then he got through a mountain of straw. A bumpy hole
was revealed soon after it was opened.
It was hard to believe that the Renald had revealed me of it. As I stared
blankly at the new hole and blinked my eyes, he said crookedly.
“This place was blocked because of you earlier. That’s why the knights
are calling you…” He suddenly stopped talking. The reason was unknown.
I approached it, taking little notice, and glanced around. Renald asked
with a very cautious voice. “…Are you really going out of the house?”
“I don’t know. I haven’t decided for sure yet.”
I finished memorizing the surrounding terrain with a casual reply. Then
came back to Renald, I was incredibly surprised as he had told me about
“Can you… not go?”
“My father said he would never let you go outside. Don’t think of running
away from home, can’t you just keep living here?”
I asked back as if I really didn’t get why he kept talking about it. “You
hated me. Isn’t it better for both of us if I’m gone?” “That’s…”
Renald’s expression was awfully distorted at my words. It was similar to
the one when it occurred right after the fight in the attic. As if he was
having a hard time listening to me.
“It can’t be.”
I laughed at the funny family when I thought about it. The devil who
pushed me to the limit every time, young Penelope and man who was
possessed by me, he can’t be troubled.
“…That’s right. I really hated you that time.”
My sudden laughter made my lips curl up and I gave him a hard word of
“I didn’t think Yvonne would ever come back that time.”
It was a scabbing sound. I faintly nodded my head, seeing my reaction he
suddenly looked teary.
“Don’t nod! And you… do you think you had a nice personality? I had been
in a hell because of a beating!”
“Huh. What did you say? Why are you suddenly talking about this?”
“I’m trying to eat and get along, but do you know how awful it has been
to me? I still have the scar from your pinch the day before you
When he saw me dumbfounded by the sudden complain, he grunted and rolled
up his sleeves. There were really nail marks on the inside of the
suddenly protruding wrist which was darker than the other skin.
‘This is a little refreshing.’ I laughed with joy.
“I’m sorry, okay?”
When he was getting angry, Renald slapped his chest a couple of times.
An awkward silence fell between us when he closed his mouth. I found a
hole, so I had nothing more to see. I was about to say, “I’m going back
to my room, looking at the faint sky of the dawn.”
“…On the Coming-of-Age ceremony, when you suddenly fell down with a burst
of blood.” He suddenly talked about topics that I didn’t want to bring up
“At first I thought you were kidding.” “What…?”
“The day before my coming-of-age ceremony, I fell from a tree in front of
your window and pretended to be dead, and you cried a lot.”
Thanks to you, our father cut down that tree right away, and you went
crazy again. Renald added humorously.
I kept silent because I didn’t know it.
“When this old man (Marquis) said she might have been poisoned, I thought
this bastard had caused another accident. Actually, I didn’t believe it.”
“What do you honestly think about, drinking poison and doing self-created
acts? Buy yourself everything you want, do whatever you want. My father
tried to kick you out because Yvonne had come back, you thought so,
“But during the week you lay there bleeding, I called in all the servants
The darkened face Renald, who was rambling on himself, gradually turned
pale. He was like a suffocated man, who was trying to recover his breath
which he had lost.
“No one knows what you usually did, where you went, or who you’re
meeting. Even your own maid.” “…”
“How could you do that? Fuck, how can she not know anything about your
paycheck for the master?”
He asked me in a fierce voice. It was fortunate that Emily faithfully
implemented what I had ordered in advance to be consistent with no matter
what. But others were none of my business.
‘You made it that way.’
I didn’t have to say what I had said many times. Now that he was well
aware of it, too.
“That’s where it is.” “…”
“Since then, I’ve been… It reminds me of how badly I treated you.” “…”
“I know. Yvonne’s necklace, I put it in your room and framed you, and
there’s a lot more things to do wrong.”
Renald blurted out like a rapid-fire shot and lifted his shoulders. His
eyes were reddening before he knew it.
“But I didn’t want to admit it. Then I can’t count my faults against you…
and I’m sure you wouldn’t accept my apology.”
“At some point… you started treating me or my family like a complete
Every time he panted shallowly, his lovely pink hair crumbled into the
air. I just looked at it with an expressionless face. My eyes met with
him, and his face was so blurry as of he cried as he looked at me as on
the day of this accident.
“I’ve been thinking about it dozens of times these days. If I had been a
little more like you then, instead of being such a jerk…”
“Wouldn’t you be that far off?”
I didn’t know that either. I wouldn’t have considered you at some point
when you were treating me as trash instead as your family.
But like he said, if you’d been a little nicer to Penelope… ‘She wouldn’t
Then I might not have had anything to do with it. I answered Renald
dryly. “If you had, I might have hated this place less than now.”
“…I’m sorry, Penelope.”
Renald stammered saying these words like a strangled man.
“I never thought you’d be so sick of everything… and tried to die.”
It was a belated apology. Because the parties couldn’t know where the
causes went from. I could not forgive him, because I was not Penelope
Now it was the moment I looked up and faced him to answer that such words
were meaningless. I suddenly opened my eyes wide to the sight of Renald.
With his head down, he was blocking his mouth with his fist. “Are… you
“Crazy, aren’t you going to cry?!”
When I asked him, he shouted and clapped his mouth and rubbed his eyes
with his fist. ‘He is crying, he is crying.’
I thought to myself, and he shouted like he went into a rage. “I didn’t
“Did I say something?” “I didn’t cry!”
The man stared at me with his eyes as red as a rabbit, in protest. A
while later, he relaxed his eyes and uttered.
“…Don’t worry by yourself and tell me if you don’t have enough money.” “…”
“When you get out, go to the mercenary guild and hire guards first, and
even if it costs a little more money, just use the hotel instead of the
beggar’s inn. Take with you self-defense magic weapon, like your scroll
I stopped Renald from planning my runaway and instead budded farewell him
At that moment, Renald’s face was twitched again. He hurriedly raised his
fist and lowered his head. I waited silently for him to pour out all the
old feelings, no more teasing him.
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